Hye...

I'm in the middle of study week.
Like most of you know, the 1st 2 or 3 days are unofficially called as a steady week and the latter are indeed the real study week.
Literally.

I just came back from meeting my friend at Mid Valley.
Supposedly we planned to hang out together and shared some gossips between us.
Somehow, she got an emergency task and had to cancel the dinner.

I felt so frustrated and ate McDonald by myself.
At that moment, I realized that nobody really cares about us.

We only have ourself to depend to.
If we put our happiness to others, we only got dissapointment and setback at the end.
Honestly speaking.

Starting from now, I won't allow myself from making an impulse decision.
Next time, make consideration in my head first before deciding something.

Yup.
This is a lesson for today.
Have a good day guys.

Life

Lately I'm started to make this blog as a platform to pour my heart out and tells everything that I wanted...
Hmm.. That's okay since we cannot confine everything to a single person.
So, blogging is one of the way to find your ease and relax your mind.
With the hope that someone gonna read it and understand you without you asking them to.

Guys...
What do you think about life?
What is life meant for you?

Yesterday, my friend came to my room and he said that he couldn't go on with his life anymore.
He fell sick with doing the same thing- wake up and go to the class and sleep and wake up again on the next day and on and on.
What do you think?

He also wondered on what  will we do after this?
When we're done with our university life?
And then what? We got a job and then??

To be honest, we're on the very same line.
We've been told that the priority for us to study in here is to get a good job one day.
So we gonna get a huge salaray.
Then gonna live a happy ever after life.

Is life as simple as that?
Not really.

To me:

Life is all about what you do and not on what you said or what you think of...

Yup.
You may have thousands of agenda in your head on what should you do to increase the quality of your well- being.
But if you don't make your first move.
You will go to nowhere.

Have you heard an adage; 'The smallest dogs always bark the loudest?"
The meaning is quite literally isn't?
That's conferred to the first point...
It is about what you do; and not what you bragging on...
You will not gain the recognization  nor the respect by telling all the people on how good you are.
They have their own eyes and set of ears..
They can judge it from their heart without you telling them what and what..

So sad, in my squad, I can see one or two people within this species.

When did you stop caring?he asked.
When did you start noticing? she replied
-Lang Leav

Oh My God!

Why I cannot do anything else but keep thinking about the assignment?

Why the simple thing become so damn hard to think about?

I need an epiphany..

Oh God!
Please Help me...

Mental Block

Alone & Reminiscing

We always have something that we hide from others.
It can be our greatest fear; our dark memories or our bad experiences that keep haunting us from one day to another.

We socialize with our friends like we have nothing else to think about.
Like we're living such a good and perfect life.
And nobody can intimidate us.

But deep down.
Whenever we're alone by ourselves..
There's always someone whispering in our ears..

Our inner voice asking to be listened and trying hard to grasp our attention.

We're too busy with filling our time with activity.
But we tend to forget about who we are.

What we really want..
And what is our purpose.

One day when we're standing on the intersection of jagged road.
We gonna ask ourself.

Where should I go?
What should I do?

We're too preoccupied to do something..

Unfortunately, it were less- significant to us.

No matter how intelligent it might be..
We always have to ask our- self first and foremost..

Do I need this?

The End.

Hye...

It's been a while since my last article in here.
I don't know why but I don't feel safe to share everything in this blog.
It makes me vulnerable.

And because of boredom and don't have anything else to do.
Here I'm..

Try to express my thought in this ancient platform.
Though I won't do it; I still doing it.
To kill my time so I will not fall asleep instead.

Now we gonna discuss whether blogging still relevant or not?
If you ask me, I gonna say- Yes it is.

Writing and reading are always correlated with one another.
You have to write 1st; so the reading material will be existed.

But the problem with today generation is on the attention span.
They won't read something so damn long except if it is really necessary.
Hmm.. Yup.
Maybe after 2 or 3 stops before they can finish it all.

Most of them will prefer Facebook post rather than googling it in the web.
I mean, they will only read  materials from the page they subscribed.

With the burst of technology and scientific innovation; there's gonna be a lot of things to be read of.
The access to knowledge will be infinite and wide without boundaries. 

But when you got something for free...
Without much efforts from your side; the value will be less significant.
And we started to take thing for granted.

Isn't?

The purpose in life is not to win. The purpose in life is to grow and to share. When you come to look back on all that you have done in life, you will get more satisfaction from the pleasure you have brought into other people's lives than you will from the times that you outdid and defeated them.

-  Harold Samuel Kushner -

Hi guys.
I think I wanna share my view on :

Why do most girls from western countries wear revealing clothes compared to the girls from eastern countries?

Read Amin Aziz's answer to Why do most girls from western countries wear revealing clothes compared to the girls from eastern countries? on Quora

Tbh, I don't agree 100% on some part of this evolution theory (because clearly, I'm a theist).
Even, we can't wear such a revealing clothes because it can lead to the exploitation of woman and also contribute to the crime involving sexual abuse.

On the other hand, by asking woman to wear appropriately (based on the eastern standard) may invite more dislike from westerns' and woman movement alike. 

So, man also has to play his part.
We need to lower our gaze and respect and love woman as who they are (doesn't matter on what she wears and what her religion is).

Spurt your thought on a piece of paper but the only things remained are the heartbroken, vengeance and revenge.

We wanna express ourselves but we confine it in a wall we built from our ego, hatred and self- judgement.

We want the whole world to hear us.

But we afraid of the judgement that they gonna give.

Though we know it, we hear it or we see it.

We know none if it, we heard nothing on it nor see a thing related to it.

And yet, we still afraid of it.

All.

Happy Eidul Fitr to all my Muslim friends. I beg your forgiveness if I had done any mistakes or irritate you with my posts etc.

Today I wanna share about social media perspective.

To be frank. I'm not too attached to the so called Facebook, Instagram, We Chat, Twitter and Snap Chat. I only used them to scroll for the news feed and share things. But, I (kind of) annoying to see people posts every single things happened in their life, even the mundane or so normal one, like what they eat today or posting something so imbecile like their friend's nasal!

Yesterday, I told this to my sister (who fortuitously is an avid Instagram user and keep posting her pictures daily).

"Sis, you know what, I have this feeling of annoyed to see somebody post every single things in social media. It seems like they seek attention and  don't socialize enough in their real life"

Then,she suddenly change her look from her phone to me- Directly to my eyes and said:

" You know what, people posts things in Instagram because they want to keep that moment alive. They want to record their journey and share them with others. What do you think huh?! Don't straightly jump to conclusion. If you loathed all that, just unfollow and stop complaining! "

I'm flabbergasted and dumbfounded at the very same time.
Yup. Though she looked like wasting her time, but she might doing something beneficial.
This notion also shared by the famous actress who want to keep the moment for their child, so that he (the child) knows that there's many people love him:
They called this account as The Yusuf Iskandar.

Selamat Hari Raya dari Yusuf sekeluarga di kampung Shah Alam! 💆🏻

A post shared by Yusuf Iskandar Hairul Azreen (@theyusufiskandar) on Jun 26, 2017 at 8:44pm PDT

When we shade some light on this issue, we can conclude that:

1. Stop being self- centered: We cannot label everything with the same label.
For instance, when we see someone's stealing goods, we shouldn't judge them as bad people straight away. They may live in poor and stealing is the last choice for them. (Which still a wrongdoing but we must hate the action but not the people who did it, we must sympathize them and try to understand them first).

2. When you loath something try to understand, why you feel that way.
Is it based from your experience, mindset or your bad circle? When we hate they posted things in Instagram, question ourself, is it because we jealous about their life?
If that's the answer. We have to motivate and educate ourself that they only post the good side of their life and the part they wanted us to see. They still have gloomy and unhappy day, but they kept it to themselves. What we see is apparent only.

3. There's always boundaries.
Whatever the reason, we have to realize that we have our own limit. Don't post every single things in social media because we might show to the world of who we really are. Our captions and picture are reflecting our way of thinking and attitude. People may use it against us one day.

Constant vigilance- Mad Eyes Moody.

Life ain’t Real

We live in a world where we only see the apparent sight..
… & don’t know much on the other side..
..of the story.

This world is full of people who keep lying to themselves
… and pretend to be somebody else just to get the attention of others.

Woman wears a lot of make up to make sure man sees them as gorgeous.
Man try very best to keep up to date with the trend..
..So that, they could sustain the ‘dominant vibe’ around.

It ain’t wrong.
Our world works that way.

The only problem is us.
Who easily trapped in the paradox of life.

Who couldn’t distinguish the reality of apparent and the truth!

The first..
Is the perfect figure in the eyes of the beholder.
But may torture and coarse the believer.

The latter is all- rounded.
The result of deep thinking and contemplation.
The focus angles that came from diverge branches.
Conclude far greatest conclusion.

So not all seeing is believing
Am I right?

I just read a book with a controversial titled : ‘Aku Kafir, Kau Siapa? (Jangan Jawab)’ .
One of the uniqueness of this masterpiece was that the writer was a Chinese Malaysian.

Dubook Press

He wrote most of the things I wanna know on what our minority group felt about Malaysia.
Yeah! And as what I have expected, they fully unsatisfied with our quota system where prioritize Bumiputera legally in most life – changing policy.

He could write most of his ideas with crystal clear explanation with using simple and layman’s terms. He could persuade me to (almost) believe in what he had wrote in his book.

How he did it?

I do think that he actually write his book based on his life’s experience. So, he write based from what he have observed from his surrounding and extracts the main lessons to be implemented to other occurrence of life.

This is what we called as reading between the lines.
Where the only (mundane) person like us see is indeed a straight line. They capable to see beyond that and achieve more value above the same events.

See?
That is why we have to experience the event itself with the best interest at heart. We must experience it with honest desire to learn from it. Thus, we shouldn’t care to sacrifice and feel the uncomforted touch of the real life!

If we want to see it like what most of them could see.
We have to experience it like what most of them had faced it all.

Exp: When you feel the difficulty of working part time and studying at the very same time. You have to proceed with it; to really learn the ‘truth lesson’ and value from that experience.

We have that courage and ability.
Be an active in nature and learn more with life.

Growth your potential.

#I think it is impossible to see the unsees if we don’t experience the deepest lesson ........... #

*I'll elaborate more on (so called) Bumiputera's rights (?)*

Note: I don't ask you to read this but if you wanna read and judge me because of what I write down here. It is up to you.
You only see what I wanted you to see anyway.

My only intention is to portray a life of a normal person who has lot of challenges to endure- and his journey to know who he really is and be who he wanna be and suppose to be.

Now, we start...
One of the many traits that can make a person success in life is their good attitude. And unfortunately, my problem with attitude becoming more and more worse from one day to another.

I planned to study since yesterday at 9 p.m but was interrupted by sudden request from Alimin who asked me to accompany him with dinner.
Then, when I went to my room, I straightly lie on my bed and playing my phone till fell asleep.

Today, more or less, the same circumstances are repeating again.
I cannot restrict myself from doing things that I shouldn't.
At the verge of watching some funny You Tube videos, suddenly I got a call from an anonymous.

She asked me about what I'm doing right now and how's my life?
She introduced herself as Kak Yati and suddenly, the image of good looking & professional woman from my past event with Faskes cropping up.

Yeah. I remember her.
She was the one who praised me a lot and also told me that I had the sanguine type of personality.
She approached me very well and I (kind of) persuaded to join her with her Prudential insurance program.
Luckily, I got lot of commitments to deal with especially on our Student Representative Council thing.
So, I decided next time (maybe) gonna worth the time.

I have to admit that I wanna start my own business since I hate the concept of 'makan gaji' or simply working for government.

We cannot improve a lot if we depend too much to the government.

Yeah. Maybe it is beneficial to give us such sustain and stable income.
No doubt on that, but you cannot go far.

You only capable to survive but either you give a hardwork or you not work at all, it gives no difference.

I don't bother to strive a bit if I really know the rewards i'm gonna reap.

Yeah.
It is a matter of time.
Now or never.

*People like to judge but only I know who I am as a whole.
You only see what I wanted you to see.
So that was what I told myself and get the courage till decided to share some of my life fragments in this blog.

Look between the lines.

Read between the words.

The most important things are left unsaid and unheard.